I’m back on the mainland with a rough re-entry on a red eye arriving just in time for my husband’s birthday. Was I ever in Maui on my own for 9 days? Which brings me to my biggest insight. True freedom has very little if anything to do with being alone. With that said, the gift of time alone is that you get to see exactly what is keeping you from experiencing absolute freedom. Anything other than feeling free is an illusion created by your ego and resistance of the choices you’ve made and the life you’re living. Easier said than done? Perhaps a life long journey or not? I’m diving in now.

Before I give you a list of my insights I want to share a few more Maui experiences. I went to Hana to visit Lynette, my son’s Nanny when we lived on the Island. If you haven’t been there it is a trip - literally. Everything looks different, resonates at a different level and takes you to another realm while still being planted on earth. We drove up to her house (Directions, take the lower road, look for the 20 mile an hour sign, a blue roof and we’re right there no numbers or bread crumbs to follow). We drove up to what looked like a boarded up house. Lynette was no where to be found, only my voice on her answering machine blaring through out wide open house. We walked to the back to find Bubs, the lovely elderly woman Lynette is care taking. There she was staring off to Hana Bay, one of the most beautiful views I’ve seen on Maui in a long time. We eventually found Lynette and also met Babes (87) Bubs (89) sister. Both of these women are icons in the Hana Maui culture having played significant roles in the community. It is custom to care for the elders (Kupuna) so the entire community thanks Lynette daily for coming to care for Bubs and fixing up the house that was once ready to be condemned. These two sisters warmed my heart and coming in and out of “being here” they had a wonderful giggling sense of humor. My favorite moment was coming into the bedroom (where the only bathroom was) and hearing Bubs say to Babes, “I thought you were going to get up?” and Babes saying, “Me too but then I looked and I was still lying down.” We were able to leave them for a bit and visit the incredible Red Sand Beach (and so topless, shhhhhh) and Venus Pools - gloriously beautiful and I saw some dragonflies the size of helicopters hovering over the fields.

The next day was a total contrast. I spent the entire day at the Ritz Carlton Spa with an amazing Lomi Lomi Massage (gift from my amazing client) and 3 of everything else - saunas, jacuzzis, cups of herbal tea, nuts and a walk and a swim. The decadence for a Mom of taking my time during all of it especially showering was perfect. I even read an article called “Momcation” in body and soul written by a woman who went to Kuai. On my walk I found myself processing/completing the last six years of my life. As I walked I allowed all the memories to come together in one place in my heart from the hotel we stayed at before marriage, our first condo we bought on Kapalua Bay, the clinic where we found out we were pregnant (another story/miracle in itself), the home we built on Plantation Estates, the condo we have now. What a day.

Now the Insights…the biggest luxury of that time was to allow myself to explore and listen to all the great things that are sent to me. My favorites were: Scott Blum who founded Daily Om and wrote Waiting for Autum and Gay Hendricks author of the Big Leap (I’ve ordered this book). They can both be found at InsidePersonalGrowth.com. I also caught an Interview with Mary Hall a well known EMT person (moves stuck emotions for increased vibration). She is teaching an abundance group coaching program that I am participating in June.There was more but here goes my insights into freedom:

1. You are always free. It’s a matter of what’s blocking you from experiencing that freedom. The number one blocks are stuck emotions and fear resulting in “you holding yourself back”. In blunt terms you create your own constraints or even feeling trapped. Mantra: I am Free, I choose Freedom now.

2. The path to Freedom is to take responsibility for “What Is” (see last post) and choosing Freedom. You have a choice. You can use your power to let go of what’s stopping you or to let yourself be stopped at any moment. Fear is not who you are. Your ego uses fear to keep you safe. When you give in to fear, you rob yourself of your own freedom.

3. Family is a source of love. My relationship with freedom stopped when I got married and had my son. I realized I didn’t know what to be excited about anymore. My heart longed for love and so I created my family and now I have so much love. I healed that disconnect and now I am loved and free to be me. I am excited about letting go of all that once was. It opens up what is to be next.

4. Dreams can entrap you. If you become attached to anything even a dream it can restrict your freedom to be present and create in the moment. I let go of all of my past dreams on this trip. I’m open to receiving the new ones or more than I can dream of, I am open. Open is free. Attached is not. When you are open you have freedom to create. When you’re attached there’s no space for anything new to show up.

5. True freedom is letting go, letting go, letting go and letting go again. Liberation is full expression in the moment and trusting what’s next.

Now my practice begins. Choose freedom. Open up. Create and receive. Join me?

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